AM I WORTH BEING A FRIEND?

I have been so excited for the last 2 months, a dear friend of mine was moving back to the state I live in and how exciting was it that she was going to stop by and see me on her way to her new home cause I was on the way...I have not see her in almost 15 years. I guess I should have know better then to trust the word of someone I thought I knew, maybe wishful thinking and loneliness helped me with the desire to want to see her so bad and her family now she is a mom and her kids seemed so awesome when we would be on the phone for hours a day...

Your not showing up answering my text or calls allows me to know how you fell about me as a whole but seriously why do that?  If you are not going to make it or come by just say so no need to leave me feeling like I do not deserve to be a friend...I wish nothing but happiness for you and your family I always have your back in all conversations even if I feel your wrong...What did I do?  I talked to you this morning at 7am and you should be here by now...and yet still nothing...Well I give up maybe I am just destined to be friendless and not worth being around...I hope you my readers never have to go through that...It hurts more then you know to feel like you have been kicked in the chest...and then laughed at while you were down...I hope one day my friend calls me and tells me she is okay and that she is not hurt and that the kids are fine...she made it safely to her destination and that she was sorry she had to make it faster then normal or something happened and she couldn't stop...but until then thank you for being a friend to me when I needed it and thank you for the laughs and tears and even the sleepless nights...I hope you are safe in the world and I pray you are all okay...